One day you get up and you’re like…WTF. Why do I complain about everything and never seem satisfied with anything? And you kind of see yourself looking at yourself from above and you think damn. This is a recipe for disaster. One thing happens and then another thing happens and then when the world doesn’t act according to your plan (spoiler alert: It NEVER DOES) you get pissy and horrible and obnoxious. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN. WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING PISSY AND HORRIBLE AND OBNOXIOUS?!
I mean lets just play through this scenario. I’m being a pain in the butt, and really, life isn’t going to change just because I’m throwing a hissy fit. It doesn’t work that way (believe me, I’ve tried). And then to top it off, the people who are trying to help you out and help you feel less terrible are being treated like crap, because, lets face it, you think the world owes you something and you’re being victimized by God and it’s just not fair, nobody will understand and everyone has it better. Obviously. (Hence the temper tantrum). So then you alienate everyone and everything and then you’re sitting at home watching Netflix reruns of God knows what eating lots and lots of Ben and Jerry. Besides helping out the sales targets for Netflix and Ben and Jerry’s, this really doesn’t benefit anyone else. (Unless you pirate shit and grow your own food and make your own food, then you are literally not helping anyone, and you are literally useless. You should really be ashamed of yourself).
Anyway. I guess today I got up and I was like…WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?! I mean, I don’t know the answer to that question, but the more basic question is…WHY AM I JUST NOT DECIDING TO BE HAPPY?! I mean really. WHY NOT?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! (Yes, the answer is lots of things, but for the purposes of discussion lets limit it to the fact I am not choosing to be happy otherwise you will turn into my therapist).
Life is life man. It’s going on no matter how you choose to feel. So why the HELL would we not choose to enjoy it?
I really have no idea.
I’m going to start asking myself this every morning.