Life is all about transitions. Just like all good leapfrogging technologies, I think I’m going to skip over the whole dating boys phase (because clearly, I think I’m a little late for that now) and jump right into the good stuff. I’m in India after all, the capital of leapfrogging.
That being said, I’ve realized that an integral part of any dating life (or potential/trying to move from imaginary dating life to a real one), is the whole analysis behind every single move ever made. Ever. Usually by close girl/guy friends. I would even venture to say that it’s a worldwide institution. And I find it absolutely endearing. I forgot how much I LOVE doing my part. “WHAT- she did NOT just do that to you. UGH! You’re too good for her.” “He said WHAT to you?? Oh hell no. That is NOT ok.” “You ended up with WHO LAST NIGHT?! OMG Details!” There is usually chai involved. It is wonderful.
Except maybe when it comes to analyzing my own. I found some great people to run play by plays with. And at first it was fun. But pretty soon (and by soon I mean 5 minutes) I realized…wow. This is sort of pointless. It’s like trying to play an unwinnable game. If you actually believe that you can figure another person out, I don’t think you’re giving the other person enough credit. I’ve decided that…there’s no such thing as signals. And if they are, I don’t think I’m going to try and figure them out, because then you’re stuck playing the unwinnable game again (and I usually try to only play games I can win).
I guess the past 2.5 years have taught me that there are SO many cool things out there, that ARE fun to hypothesize about. And my old life taught me that I love hanging out with close friends and just talking about life. Or bitching about life. Or I don’t know. Something cool. If I’m with them, pretty much anything is cool.
So I think to keep things simple, my dating life will look like this. I hang out with men. How can anyone tell if it’s a date? I don’t know. I’m not going to try and figure out what it means. My friends are not going to try and figure out what it means. Because nobody really knows what it means. And that’s ok. My life is kind of chaotic (and by kind of chaotic, I mean I don’t even know where I will be 3 days from now chaotic), so really who knows if we will ever be in the same city at the same time, and even if we are, god knows how long (I couldn’t tell you with any degree of certainty). But I figure if two people really want to see each other, they’ll make it happen. And if not, maybe it wasn’t that big of a deal anyway.
So really, I guess what I’m trying to say is that instead of spending time trying to play the unwinnable game, I’m going use that time to sit back and let life happen. There’s so much questioning/finding/searching/living/trying to take over the world-ing (my personal favorite) out there- I want to be doing that.
If you want to join/participate, let me know. Maybe we’ll make it happen.
But right now, I have a guy, a girl, and some chai waiting for me downstairs.
Life is pretty rad.
Thats whats up.